This is what the darkness had promised; Silence. Utter complete silence. The world had just stopped, I had just stopped. It was as if everything was no more and there was only It. The dark, the never ending abyss. I was floating, my mind empty, my thoughts on nothing but the way I felt. Finally free. As if every chain that had bound me had shattered. As if every death on my conscious no longer held weight. There was nothing left to force me down, to burn like an arrow through my soul. Darkness had promised me an end and here it was.
But it wasn't what I had wanted. Somewhere inside me I knew it wasn't, there was a piece missing, a tiny hole in my heart left unfilled. The darkness had given me freedom but had taken away something just as important and the moment I felt it missing, I began to fight.
"Era"
The voice was distant, breaking through the blanket of silence. His voice, I could recognize it even in the End; there would never be a doubt.
"Era....please...."
He was crying, or yelling, or both. The way his voice cracked, how far it sounded, it was something I had heard only once in our time together and I had wished to never hear again.
"Era don't leave me."
"I won't," my voice dropped out of my mouth and into nothing. Like the words were never there, taken away as they passed my lips.
"Now Eraline, is this not what you wanted." I knew that voice too. Never in one place, always in another. It drifted around me, filling my senses and promising me things it never had to say.
"No!" I tried to move, tried to fight the hold of the End. I had to get back to him, my people, and the war. Even if it meant a painful death or a painful life; I had not yet fulfilled my promise.
"You lie to me. You never lied to me before." He touched her, the caress of gentle fingers over my cheek. If I could I would have bit them, but even I could not harm the Darkness.
"I want to go back."
"You want to go back? Because of him?"
The darkness of my mind filled with a blinding image from my memories. It was the first time I had seen him. Blood smeared across his face, the crest of the king torn along with half of his uniform. He had been dirty and bloody and just as beautiful as he was today. His eyes shone the colour of the sea and they burned with a fire so fierce he should have been born a dragon. That is why I had liked him, why I now loved him. He never gave up and he made me better.
"I am going back. It is not your time to have me and you know it."
"Who are you to command the darkness?!" he growled and the soft fingers became a harsh grip around my jaw.
"You know who I am," I spat through the pain. "Eraline of Belliss. The Black Bird. A Child of death herself!" Fight, my body screamed a I moved and forced my arm up. Fight I used everything I could to pull away. FIGHT!
"You will be mine Era." His voice drifted away and the darkness melted into blinding light. I coughed and hacked, water rushing past my lips as I was shoved onto my side to throw up whatever had filled my lungs. The fire light was pulled from me, shapes moved and whispers rose.
"Is she okay?" "Is she alive?" "Era.."
The last one, I focused on that one. "Ben," my voice was a rasp. Harsh and painful, but music to my ears. The earth was cold and wet under me, the weight of a dry blanket around my shaking body was like an anchor. The heaviness in my soul was back, every death a black thorn, but I was back as well. He had not won this time.
"I am here Era." Calloused fingers cupped my cheeks, turning my face up toward the light. His blue eyes were wet and I couldn't believe he had been crying. Crying over me, how foolish this boy was; but I suppose I was just as foolish. Giving up my only chance at peace for him and for them. I looked beyond his shoulder at the small group of people. My dark skin, my cat shaped eyes and sharp nose.
"Did we win?" I croaked and returned my gaze on him. Watching him break down in laughter, shaking his head and stroking my hair.
"Yes, we won this battle Era."